24-Love Is

January 19, 2009

Love is a chain
You bear with shame
As you take the blame
For the secrets with no name.

Love is pain.

Love is being captive to fears,
Eyes red from the tears
You’ve held back for years
But now cry.

Love is learning to deny.

Love is giving up the right
To feel safe at night,
Or to put up a fight
Or look like you might.

Love is pretending you’re alright.

Love is trying not to feel
Wound you fear God cannot heal,
Wounds you pray cannot be real
But are.

Love is a bloody scar.

Love is praying to die
While protecting the lie
And not questioning why
The price is so high.

Love is a heavy load.

11-Forever Alone

January 19, 2009

Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
No one to notice hot tears she’s cried.

In darkness deep, the young girl weeps
Her soul so torn she cannot mourn.

She dare not feel–(this can’t be real!)
No words to convey what’s inside her today.

A broken heart torn apart….
No place to find the missing parts.

Not easy to mend….can she live again?
Where are the pieces? Where did she go?

Shattered! Splattered! She never mattered.
Just hide the pain-learn to pretend.

A shell in hell, forever alone.
Nowhere to call home.
Even inside her skin she’s on her own.

The fracture? Almost complete. Defeat…but not quite.
She lives. There is hope.
As long as she lives, there is hope.

1-Intro

January 14, 2009

This collection of poems is one child’s perception of what it was like to grow up in an abusive home and world. Her memories, like toxic waste, were buried for many years, but the effects still leaked out to contaiminate the rest of her life.

As part of her healing journey, she chose to write about the memories as they surfaced. Her hope is that the reader will be helped to understand the impact of child abuse on the child who experiences it, and that this understanding will enable someone who needs help (victim or perpetrator) to find the courage it takes to get the help they need.

copyright 1991
by “The Child” (Rachel Lynn)