33-It Was “That Bad!”
January 19, 2009
Denial–what a wonderful way
To make it through another day.
Take a drink to numb the pain
That’s not really there (it’s all hard to explain).
Pop a pill (not for a thrill)
But just to survive, if you must act alive.
“The way out is through…” so what do I do?
I’m hurt! I’m afraid.
I don’t know what to say!
Am I too bad for God to redeem?
There’s my failure before
(I’m not what I seem).
The pain won’t go away.
The guilt seems here to stay.
Too scared to live. Too tired to die.
Got no more tears left to cry.
Denial worked–now it’s gone.
I hurt. I’m alone.
Not sure how to go on.
Where do I belong?
Been to hell…know it well!
Don’t have a soul left to sell.
So I open my heart–it’s a start.
Rescue me, God.
Or again, as before,
I am gone.
I come to You as I am.
Will You also turn me away?
